No Sleep

Pushed away with all your might Is it bad If you want them back? So you relied on your hindsight You had it all But it's all you had Dig yourself deeper like a lie I'm moving slow I'm fast asleep Double knotting all the ties To the friends I had in 2016 And the showers brought May flowers to their waiting room (Your name in italics a product of habit) Vase half full with holy water You were holy too (A swan song in static so melodramatic) And you couldn't put it better with them holding your tongue I'll just say I can't remember because I don't like who I was Cold to the touch and never warm enough So you've settled on sleeping forever Mark my height with pen and measure An older soul, was weary in my youth No daylight to waste No sleep left to lose You looked over my last effort to assert (Speak for yourself you have my word) No, it's never been quite like me to be firm (And even still what's mine is yours) 'Cause I haven't felt right in such a long time And there's no sleep left to lose Just fucking static all the time And the showers brought May flowers to their waiting room (Your name in italics a product of habit) Needed a figure like a father just like salt in your wounds (A swan song in static so melodramatic) You said I wouldn't feel it when you picked me up by the scruff Perfect posture starts to bow when the weight piles up Cold to the touch and never warm enough Warm enough