Palinopsia

I've stared at you so long Your silhouette's burned on my corneas I've loved you long enough My limbs still twitched when you took my head clean off I was defined by someone I have bad dreams of At least I knew who I was I'll find you when I'm fragile for you But don't fix me if I'm not broke No, I don't breathe the way that I was born to When I catch my breath, I choke That takes me back when I was young The innocence that you knew nothing of Thank God I'm not who I once was But I wish you knew me when I was still as soft Last month you called but no one just calls Thought something happened With you I'm shocked it hadn't Find me when I'm fragile for you But don't fix me if I'm not broke No, I don't breathe the way that I was born to When I catch my breath, I choke I haven't healed how I had hoped When I catch my breath, I choke Drove back to my hometown But I can't find our old house anymore I've got good sense of direction I just didn't expect it between all the chain stores I knew it would change But I wished not in the ways that made it pure You used to know me so well I tell you I'm still myself Time's just run its course You loved the smell of gas And of the fresh-cut grass When we still had a yard I'd take you back to the old days The ones that made future shit so hard Man, you know where to find me It's not in my nature to go that far I'm your open wound And you never can tell If it'll heal on its own Or if I'm desperate for help