Drowning Deep in Doubt X

What good is a life when you live it ashamed? I dream just to be halfway But all I am is a product of wasted efforts and best intentions If the only place I belong is an afterlife that I just can't believe in At least I'll know I was born so not everyone lives and dies on their own This world I've torn apart left me drowning deep in doubt This fire in my heart is beginning to burn me out What good is a life when you live it alone? I just want to be wanted When all you do is fall, you start wondering if disaster is what you're built for Will I slowly learn to accept that I won't have more than a life on the sidelines? Or will I always be dreaming of light in life from the darkness alone? It's so hard to feel anything but empty It hurts just to feel anything at all It's so hard to feel anything I want to It hurts just to feel, it hurts just to feel