Ambivalent Peaks

Can't find the forest Too stuck on trees But now you're invested So I'm left pretending It's all I can see I asked for a window To open my cell You came as kaleidoscopes Climbing, colliding You came as yourself Whether I'm ready Is not up to me We go where we're ordered To bunker or breach To the close of creation As shells and stories A spiral staircase Astoria, Queens I claimed you while conscious Got sleepy, forgetful And lost you in dreams You folded your leg Right foot to left knee You laughed at my back Said you could not believe How violent I could be Just brushing my teeth Drove from the service The truth in my teeth My woman beside me A clutch of hydrangeas A strange sort of peace In loss, I'm made certain Unveiled clarity It's you I will marry My lover, my family You always will be But every word Seemed too small to speak So we watched the sky reach Ambivalent peaks We made our projections Present and free