Ambivalent Peaks

Can't find the forest

Too stuck on trees

But now you're invested

So I'm left pretending

It's all I can see

I asked for a window

To open my cell

You came as kaleidoscopes

Climbing, colliding

You came as yourself

Whether I'm ready

Is not up to me

We go where we're ordered

To bunker or breach

To the close of creation

As shells and stories

A spiral staircase

Astoria, Queens

I claimed you while conscious

Got sleepy, forgetful

And lost you in dreams

You folded your leg

Right foot to left knee

You laughed at my back

Said you could not believe

How violent I could be

Just brushing my teeth

Drove from the service

The truth in my teeth

My woman beside me

A clutch of hydrangeas

A strange sort of peace

In loss, I'm made certain

Unveiled clarity

It's you I will marry

My lover, my family

You always will be

But every word

Seemed too small to speak

So we watched the sky reach

Ambivalent peaks

We made our projections

Present and free