Shipwreck

[Verse] I know I contradict myself too often to say shit But I've been wanting to say this for way too long I've been patient, so let me talk You know I don't wanna start conversations a lot Fall to the basement with the rest of my vacant thoughts And all the trauma that I faced which makes it hard to communicate With my relationships, I'm far too frightened of the risk of letting you down Letting you see the part of me that I've been keeping around So I bite nails and then clench my jaw My skin goes pale, thinking, "Oh my god, where do I go?" See, I'm bold Last night, I cried for the first time in a while And I thought to myself "I'm worthless; I'm a child." Sunshine through my window My pillow was an ocean, shipwreck was my hеad My thoughts drowning in emotion And it feels like I'm stuck somewhеre I do not belong And it feels Like I've fucked up so badly when I'm wrong I refuse to accept that I'll fail, so I fail And it hurts me the most when I'm writing my songs