Shipwreck

[Verse]

I know I contradict myself too often to say shit

But I've been wanting to say this for way too long

I've been patient, so let me talk

You know I don't wanna start conversations a lot

Fall to the basement with the rest of my vacant thoughts

And all the trauma that I faced which makes it hard to communicate

With my relationships, I'm far too frightened of the risk of letting you down

Letting you see the part of me that I've been keeping around

So I bite nails and then clench my jaw

My skin goes pale, thinking, "Oh my god, where do I go?"

See, I'm bold

Last night, I cried for the first time in a while

And I thought to myself "I'm worthless; I'm a child."

Sunshine through my window

My pillow was an ocean, shipwreck was my hеad

My thoughts drowning in emotion

And it feels like I'm stuck somewhеre I do not belong

And it feels Like I've fucked up so badly when I'm wrong

I refuse to accept that I'll fail, so I fail

And it hurts me the most when I'm writing my songs