Decay

[Intro] Can I rest my head? On your shoulder for a moment? I need to rest my head It's getting harder to control it I wrote my testament Have my money, the car & home Because I don't want it alone [Chorus] I'm drowning in the rain, the rain, the rain My bones all washed away, away, away 'Til the mud turns into clay That's how deep I'm buried, deep I'm buried Will the flowers rise in May? To grow into new, the old you has to decay [Verse 1] I planned my funeral Had the invites printed Bought a pinstriped suit All my farewells written Suicide is a sin 'Cause I was raised as a Christian But I lost every single thing I worked for in an instant, listen Whose fault was that? Tried blaming everyone beside myself for all the bad I ignored every fucking warning sign along the path Then act surprised when my car is crashed Arm in a cast The trauma doctor said I almost flatlined Why didn't I die? I was supposed to be known Now they expose me online I hired lawyers to erase what they were saying, I tried But I was lying to myself That everything would be fine Lord, save me Karma fucking played me Cheated on every girl that I knew since I was 18 But it's time to change me I just had a baby It's time to be a real man for my little lady [Chorus] I'm drowning in the rain, the rain, the rain My bones all washed away, away, away 'Til the mud turns into clay That's how deep I'm buried, deep I'm buried Will the flowers rise in May? To grow into new, the old you has to decay [Bridge] I'm stuck Laying in the muck Maggots picking at me like I'm lunch Yuck No one gives a fuck They wanna see me fail I gotta bury every fucking enemy Including myself I said I'm stuck Laying in the muck Maggots picking at me like I'm lunch Yuck No one gives a fuck They wanna see me fail I gotta bury every fucking enemy Including myself [Chorus] I'm drowning in the rain, the rain, the rain My bones all washed away, away, away 'Til the mud turns into clay That's how deep I'm buried, deep I'm buried Will the flowers rise in May? To grow into new, the old you has to decay