Help

Feeling like I fell by the wayside And I can't get back up Turning 31 doesn't feel right And I still think of When I was too young to be jaded by anything But those days are unfamiliar Now its all done and I've wasted 20 years I should have chose sleep over staying up But I'm defenseless I couldn't find peace in the darkness So I numb the senses Falling so deep Couldn't stop if I wanted to Who should I believe? Feeling so weak Gave up then I lost you Am I dead or dreaming? I'm too low to be alone And my head is an ocean of misery So call for help or let me go out on my own Crying out for a lifeline But I won't hold my breath I'm hard to be around sometimes And I won't forget When I was beat up, broke down and burnt out You helped me to my feet again And I was never there when you needed a friend I'm too low to be alone And my head is an ocean of misery So call for help or let me go out on my own I'm drowning again Calling for help, please let me in Try being me 'Cause my head is an ocean of misery And I'm drowning in defeat