Daudrie

[Chorus: Almost Normal] Why do I feel like I'm losing all control? (Control) Sounds are fading, can't speak, where did you go? (Control) I'm screaming, can you hear me now? (Now) Tell me can you hear me? (Hear me) [Verse 1: Ekoh] It was a typical night, not much to do Her and her friend just hanging out in her room And they were never the cool girls in school Someone texted them, they didn't know what to do Said that they were just chillin' and watching Netflix He said that we got some liquor, come and kick it And he was older, they didn't think for a second He would ever wanna hang with them, especially some freshmen But, who knows? Maybe he'll think that we're cool And when we go back to school, they will look at us differently, right? She asked, she said she was down They said "cool" and they picked 'em up around the corner A little tipsy already, 'cause they had been drinking some vodka That they found in the liquor cabinet earlier They had never really drank, so needless to say The thought of drinking too much had never occurred to her Snuck out the house then got in the car (In the car) They said the house isn't too far away (Far away) So they parked and then they walked a little bit Before they snuck into the window of one of the kids' basements The coolest kids on the football team, and it was Five of 'em all laughing, it seemed like Everything was all good enough Poured the liquor, said, "You gotta drink outta the bitch cup now" She was game, didn't wanna seem like she couldn't hang So she drank it all down and then she swigged the bottle By the time she looked around and couldn't find her friend And thought that something wasn't right and started feeling awful This where it all gets hazy She remembers being picked up and carried to a room It all started going fuzzy, fading in and out She came to, he's on top of her with his friends around "No, stop, what are you doing? Quit playing!" She couldn't really move and she was so drunk But she kept saying it, she kept saying it He put his hand into her pants She didn't know what he was doing, she said it again Tried to push it away and she said "no" But her eyes were barely open up and she just couldn't move around Felt him take off her shirt and couldn't tell But it looked like his friend had started filmin', too (Filmin', too) Heard the sound of his voice, breath on her neck Felt his hand push her down, and that's it It went black, tape cut, right there She don't remember anything after that [Segue] [Verse 2: Ekoh] She woke up to the sound of her mom shaking her Her front yard, 5 AM in the middle of winter Said the temperature was 21 degrees And her hair had almost been completely frozen to the concrete Still hazy when she walked back inside She remembers that she kept on askin' if she's alright Then took her clothes off to put her in the bath Saw some marks on her body and that asked if she'd been attacked but She couldn't really even put words together And the whole room was spinning, she just started cryin' (Cryin') The next thing she remembers, the doctor asking her questions And even now, it's really hard to recollect it They said "rape", and now the cops are showing up Asking where she was last night and what happened, but Still in shock, her brother had found her phone With all the people she had texted last night in the snow They took him into custody and made the news Small town football player had been accused of Sexual assault, she didn't know what it was called And really felt like it was her fault (Her fault) The next day at school, she was outcast The whole student body, they had heard about it And she just wanted to pretend it didn't happen But the word of this video, it got around (Got around) They called her "slut", said she was a lying bitch And why the fuck would she accuse someone like him to get attention? And even if she wasn't lyin', she probably wanted him And if she didn't she shouldn't drink and learned her lessons This all feels like a real bad dream, and Everybody keeps staring, it seems like She could still feel the spots where he touched her Her life is over, how could anybody love her now? And even adults think she's making this up And all the friends she did have are too afraid to speak up Pray to God that this will just go away and She keeps countin' the days until this court case is over Just a little validation; said she ruined his life, it's amazing (Amazing) Let these thoughts just run all day, and go to sleep now The only way to escape it (Escape it) [Segue] [Verse 3: Ekoh] She woke up to the sound of her mom screaming first Said "They let 'em all walk", thought she was dreaming first They were kids and now their whole life ahead of them And not to let some little mistake and a little girl threaten it Plus the dad was a senator with connections Just boys being boys; they had all learned their lessons Couldn't believe it, she just wanted justice And more than that, she just wanted them to admit it But she was disregarded and then the backlash They had her name attached to "slut", made into hashtags Open Twitter, the notifications blew up Sayin' she should kill herself, that she deserved it And then, from that night and all the court dates since Couldn't prepare her for the hurt those words did Sick of crying and being under a microscope and Having her womanhood be the topic of the conversation Half the town thinks he's innocent Happy to get him back on the field so they can win again Turn the computer off and chuck the phone Like "What the fuck happened to my life?" 'Cause I don't know, but, future ruined The reputation is nothin' and she keeps Taking all of these pills but it don't numb it She said "fuck it" for the last time (Last time) Maybe these people on Facebook are right Grabbed the belt she found in the top drawer Then she took it to her bathroom to tie it up (Tie it up) Could barely see through the tears but she kept Hearin' people call her "liar" as she stepped on the lip of the tub You don't know how dark this life gets Sick of living her whole life in regret So she took a deep breath Closed her eyes And then she stepped (Stepped) [Chorus: Almost Normal] Why do I feel like I'm losing all control? (Control) Sounds are fading, can't speak, where did you go? I'm screaming, can you hear me now? (Now) Tell me can you hear me? (Hear me) Why do I feel like I'm losing all control? (Control) Sounds are fading, can't speak, where did you go? I'm screaming, can you hear me now? (Now) Tell me can you hear me? (Hear me)