Daudrie

[Chorus: Almost Normal]

Why do I feel like I'm losing all control? (Control)

Sounds are fading, can't speak, where did you go? (Control)

I'm screaming, can you hear me now? (Now)

Tell me can you hear me? (Hear me)

[Verse 1: Ekoh]

It was a typical night, not much to do

Her and her friend just hanging out in her room

And they were never the cool girls in school

Someone texted them, they didn't know what to do

Said that they were just chillin' and watching Netflix

He said that we got some liquor, come and kick it

And he was older, they didn't think for a second

He would ever wanna hang with them, especially some freshmen

But, who knows? Maybe he'll think that we're cool

And when we go back to school, they will look at us differently, right?

She asked, she said she was down

They said "cool" and they picked 'em up around the corner

A little tipsy already, 'cause they had been drinking some vodka

That they found in the liquor cabinet earlier

They had never really drank, so needless to say

The thought of drinking too much had never occurred to her

Snuck out the house then got in the car (In the car)

They said the house isn't too far away (Far away)

So they parked and then they walked a little bit

Before they snuck into the window of one of the kids' basements

The coolest kids on the football team, and it was

Five of 'em all laughing, it seemed like

Everything was all good enough

Poured the liquor, said, "You gotta drink outta the bitch cup now"

She was game, didn't wanna seem like she couldn't hang

So she drank it all down and then she swigged the bottle

By the time she looked around and couldn't find her friend

And thought that something wasn't right and started feeling awful

This where it all gets hazy

She remembers being picked up and carried to a room

It all started going fuzzy, fading in and out

She came to, he's on top of her with his friends around

"No, stop, what are you doing? Quit playing!"

She couldn't really move and she was so drunk

But she kept saying it, she kept saying it

He put his hand into her pants

She didn't know what he was doing, she said it again

Tried to push it away and she said "no"

But her eyes were barely open up and she just couldn't move around

Felt him take off her shirt and couldn't tell

But it looked like his friend had started filmin', too (Filmin', too)

Heard the sound of his voice, breath on her neck

Felt his hand push her down, and that's it

It went black, tape cut, right there

She don't remember anything after that

[Segue]

[Verse 2: Ekoh]

She woke up to the sound of her mom shaking her

Her front yard, 5 AM in the middle of winter

Said the temperature was 21 degrees

And her hair had almost been completely frozen to the concrete

Still hazy when she walked back inside

She remembers that she kept on askin' if she's alright

Then took her clothes off to put her in the bath

Saw some marks on her body and that asked if she'd been attacked but

She couldn't really even put words together

And the whole room was spinning, she just started cryin' (Cryin')

The next thing she remembers, the doctor asking her questions

And even now, it's really hard to recollect it

They said "rape", and now the cops are showing up

Asking where she was last night and what happened, but

Still in shock, her brother had found her phone

With all the people she had texted last night in the snow

They took him into custody and made the news

Small town football player had been accused of

Sexual assault, she didn't know what it was called

And really felt like it was her fault (Her fault)

The next day at school, she was outcast

The whole student body, they had heard about it

And she just wanted to pretend it didn't happen

But the word of this video, it got around (Got around)

They called her "slut", said she was a lying bitch

And why the fuck would she accuse someone like him to get attention?

And even if she wasn't lyin', she probably wanted him

And if she didn't she shouldn't drink and learned her lessons

This all feels like a real bad dream, and

Everybody keeps staring, it seems like

She could still feel the spots where he touched her

Her life is over, how could anybody love her now?

And even adults think she's making this up

And all the friends she did have are too afraid to speak up

Pray to God that this will just go away and

She keeps countin' the days until this court case is over

Just a little validation; said she ruined his life, it's amazing (Amazing)

Let these thoughts just run all day, and go to sleep now

The only way to escape it (Escape it)

[Segue]

[Verse 3: Ekoh]

She woke up to the sound of her mom screaming first

Said "They let 'em all walk", thought she was dreaming first

They were kids and now their whole life ahead of them

And not to let some little mistake and a little girl threaten it

Plus the dad was a senator with connections

Just boys being boys; they had all learned their lessons

Couldn't believe it, she just wanted justice

And more than that, she just wanted them to admit it

But she was disregarded and then the backlash

They had her name attached to "slut", made into hashtags

Open Twitter, the notifications blew up

Sayin' she should kill herself, that she deserved it

And then, from that night and all the court dates since

Couldn't prepare her for the hurt those words did

Sick of crying and being under a microscope and

Having her womanhood be the topic of the conversation

Half the town thinks he's innocent

Happy to get him back on the field so they can win again

Turn the computer off and chuck the phone

Like "What the fuck happened to my life?"

'Cause I don't know, but, future ruined

The reputation is nothin' and she keeps

Taking all of these pills but it don't numb it

She said "fuck it" for the last time (Last time)

Maybe these people on Facebook are right

Grabbed the belt she found in the top drawer

Then she took it to her bathroom to tie it up (Tie it up)

Could barely see through the tears but she kept

Hearin' people call her "liar" as she stepped on the lip of the tub

You don't know how dark this life gets

Sick of living her whole life in regret

So she took a deep breath

Closed her eyes

And then she stepped (Stepped)

[Chorus: Almost Normal]

Why do I feel like I'm losing all control? (Control)

Sounds are fading, can't speak, where did you go?

I'm screaming, can you hear me now? (Now)

Tell me can you hear me? (Hear me)

Why do I feel like I'm losing all control? (Control)

Sounds are fading, can't speak, where did you go?

I'm screaming, can you hear me now? (Now)

Tell me can you hear me? (Hear me)