[Verse 1]
And I’ve been waiting for a moment
With something I can say
To tell you I've been lying
I’m really not okay
I will just keep fallin'
Wait until I hit
And then I'm askin', "How’d I wind up in this place again?"
So I take another pill then I zone out
Tone down all the shit in my head but that voice gets so loud
That I can’t think, and I just wanna run
Like I’m never comin' back
And I really wanna to love
But I feel so anxious everyday
Wake up, can’t go back to sleep
Lay in my bed
Then turn on my phone and look at these people who better than me
I can start feelin' the old insecurities tighten the grip in my chest
They keep on sayin' that time makes it better, then why do I constantly feel like I’m less?
Don’t wanna speak up I feel like the only one having these problems of all of my friends
Is it anxiety built up inside of me, or am I dying? Is this how it ends?
[Pre-Chorus]
Or maybe that’s how real life is
I don’t wanna feel like this
All this shit I'm dealing with more heavy than I realize
And I'm slowing down, down, down
And I'll be fallin' down, down, baby
[Chorus]
Yea it’s a long way down, look out below
I’ve got some voices in my head that wanna see me die
They waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
They’re never stopping until I fall
Look out below
Now tell me, what do I do?
When I’ve got all these vices that I’m tied to
Waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
And they ain't stopping till the see me fall, oh shit
Look out below
[Verse 2]
It's another day that I’m tryin' to float, but I’m treading water and I’m feeling weak
Lookin' 'round for someone to help but there’s no one there and I’m startin' to sink
Fantasize what it might be like to just stop the fight and then drift away
I will sit alone and let the thought replay
When the whole life feels just like a train wreck
Wanna look away but I just stay with
Tryin' to get ahead but I just can’t win
And I fall apart but I don’t say shit
Take your pick, what’s your fix today?
The drugs? The girls? Perfection?
Once you get a grip on that, you’ll switch addictions to attention
When those people turn on you, you’ll go running back for affection
From the friends you left behind but you can’t re-establish that connection
Yeah, sick of everybody telling me to learn to let go
I can barely hold on the edge, I can never get a grip if I let it go again
I ain’t ever comin' back, I been tryin' to adapt, but it’s really gettin' old
When it never really helps, cuz I know when I'm alone
Those thought will speak up, and I’m afraid of the day when I let them win, yeah
[Pre-Chorus]
Or maybe that’s how real life is
I don’t wanna feel like this
All this shit I'm dealing with more heavy than I realize
And I'm slowing down, down, down
And I'll be fallin' down, down, baby
[Chorus]
Yea it’s a long way down, look out below
I’ve got some voices in my head that wanna see me die
They waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
They’re never stopping until I fall
Look out below
Now tell me, what do I do?
When I’ve got all these vices that I’m tied to
Waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
And they ain't stopping till the see me fall, oh shit
Look out below
