Chaos

When the world gets quiet, and everybody's dreaming I stay up late, so I can finally hear myself think When I'm far from home, I, I call God up on the telephone I say "Hey, there girl, I don't know what I'm doing Think I've made a mess of my life, my soul is twisted up in ruins I feel so alone" And the silence feels like a dial tone Somedays, I'm a fast car learning how to drive Drive around the mountain, gonna lose my mind Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why Why I can't get satisfied Sometimes, I'm a roller coaster ride I ride around the bend, and I close my eyes I don't know where I'm going, now, I'm up too high Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos The chaos I'm over all the stories, the bullshit I enabled I thought my life would look a little bit more stable There's an earthquake in my mind While the wildfires burn outside Somedays, I'm a fast car learning how to drive Drive around the mountain, gonna lose my mind Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why Why I can't get satisfied Sometimes, I'm a roller coaster ride I ride around the bend, and I close my eyes I don't know where I'm going, now, I'm up too high Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos The chaos The chaos Oh, the chaos I don't know what's become of me I miss the Jersey girl I used to be Somedays, I'm a fast car learning how to drive Drive around the mountain, gonna lose my mind Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why Why I can't get satisfied Sometimes, I'm a roller coaster ride I ride around the bend, and I close my eyes I don't know where I'm going, now, I'm up too high Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos The chaos The chaos Oh, the chaos I close my eyes, I see my dreams are changing I'm okay with it I'm alright