Learned Behavior

I've gotta get outta here Sometime or another Get off my ass make my way back to work Cat-sitting doesn't call for undivided attention you know I know I've seen too many fall apart this way I swore I wouldn't add to the tally If we're true to the narrative I'm no different I'm just another graduate Starving for work however she can get it I came home from a gig that made me hate music I'm signing a lease that I can't afford with my friends Ain't this the dream To be floating a family While they fight over money I'd go broke to put an end to it to give them something else to do Get me out of the middle Haven't caught myself a break since I opened my eyes Twenty-five years ago they called me beloved And they spelled it all wrong It's a beautiful sentiment I've never felt less like it's true For anyone that matters So cut me slack I'm just trying to get back on my feet Do the things I thought I'd have done by nineteen I'm so hard on myself Well I wonder if self-loathing's learned behavior If so can I unlearn it too? I tell everyone I love they're wonderful They’re doing their best and I've never been prouder and I want to believe in me too Maybe I could believe in me too