Not Abt

I finally did it without crying Twenty minutes ago It was nice but not like I remember From when my body was so distant Belonged to me like an instrument Not something that I was, but what I played And I used to think that drinking made people so interesting Something to talk about to widen their peer's eyes 'Cause everyone loves a good shitfaced story You've gotta stop when they wouldn't be shocked if you died We were reading Macbeth In English I shouldn't say the name but fuck those theater freaks And it took my breath when Lady Macbeth said she wanted to be unsexed I said so loud that everyone laughed, it's just like me Yesterday I went to work in my pajamas No one even slightly tried to mention it Made me wonder why instead of my own comfort I always try to be so goddamn stylish I live my life like it's a movie someone's watching And I always loved that until just recently Until I realized I'm a birthday clown Who can' t even juggle And I'm the only one watching the movie I'm the only one watching the movie I'm the only one watching the movie I'm the only one watching the movie