Laurel Leaf (Anhedonia)

[Intro] So We were sleeping and then I heard a sound in the living room And Daddy came to go check And then [? 0:10] it's a body And, and, I don't know [?], like The body had, like, a speaker in its hand And, and then [?] goes, dun-dun-dun-da [Verse 1] All the things I told myself and I heard nothing Every lie I sold myself 'til I quit buying Found the inner activist and killed her quiet Buried under processing, but she's been climbing [Refrain] Up in my tree, I have all I could really need And the fork in my tongue troubles no one Shame and relief to be finally, truly seen As I am, as I'll be, as I'vе been [Verse 2] All the nights I cut myself and I felt nothing Murdеr every messenger, but they keep coming Cultivate your loneliness 'til you're a loner Cradle your anxiety and anhedonia [Refrain] Down at the end of your day in the mess you've made And the bones of your bed, she's a shipwreck What's in a name or a face or a garden grave? Stomach-sick at the turn of the trick [Instrumental Break] [Bridge] Left waiting on the airlift out Stuck straining for the punchline now [Refrain] Worry away your pretensions of guile and grace What's the last thing you said?: "God's a basehead Spinning in place, never fazed by the risks he takes" Then you fell through the floor on a low, so pure When you spread at the surf, did your teeth hurt? Almost awake, I await a redemption day Laurel leaf, you'll be all I can see [Outro] All the signs I showed myself and I saw nothing All the signs I showed myself and I saw nothing