Lotus

[Intro] My halo Tried to punish me From troubled mind, I came to find The waters were never sweet [Verse 1: Little Simz] Paranoia got me looking out the window Mood might change depending on how the wind blow When I was young no one told me health ain't always physical Looking around, I ain't no different from my kinfolk I pray we heal with words, who Jah bless, no man can curse I pray that I'm a vessel and I stay giving all I've learned If self-love means putting me first It's the greatest love story on earth [Chorus: Michael Kiwanuka] In my pain is a glory You kept tryna control me But your God isn't for me So, I'll be moving on In your head, you forsake me But my heart isn't breaking And like dew from a flower I see the break of dawn [Verse 2: Little Simz] Open fire, all my life a fighter Dropped out of college, still I Made it through the wire Betting on myself to take me higher I'm the supplier A thousand mini deaths within All black attire You brought that woman to a low I might amplify her It's more than evident, I know I'm what they desire Can't tell you what the future holds or the day I'll retire They tell me "Simbi, it's in your hands", you're preaching to the choir To get your voice heard, I guess Takes some finesse This music shit, one big game I'm playing chess They want me speak on world issues on the Internet But that's not how I speak my truth or the way I express You ain't got a clue how I feel And what I suppress So when you're in the public eye I wanna see your best I been saying the world's fucked from when I was twelve So don't tell me what I should be speaking on, if you ain't changed yourselves My pen has always been respected I'm still connected And when I write, it's introspective Somewhat subjective I'm not sure who you think I am Or what you're expecting But I been human all my life So, please accept it You live your life on a screen Your mind's congested You don't know what it is I see And how I'm affected So quit acting like the world, I've been neglecting I chose to keep myself protected You remain infected Acting like I did a crime You want me arrested If I'm not good enough for you Then stop investing It's not by force, you should listen I don't expect it But I won't tolerate a lie Or be disrespected Yo, I am not your damn puppet, your prodigy Sometimes, I can't believe the nerve, the hypocrisy I'm not responsible for the world in all honesty All I can do is better myself, that's my prophecy, my prophecy, yeah [Chorus 2: Michael Kiwanuka] If we're getting high tonight It's gonna be a long night It's gonna be a long night Underneath the sky, we fly high I was always hiding Now, I'm on a mountain [Verse 3: Little Simz] Rest assured your voice is heard, I'm here listening But I don't wanna hear about no talk, about you giving in It's OK having a moment of weakness when you're low But you're the strongest person I know, you know You know [Chorus: Michael Kiwanuka] In my pain is a glory You kept tryna control me But your God isn't for me So I'll be moving on In your head, you forsake me But my heart isn't breaking And like dew from a flower I see the break of dawn [Chorus 2: Michael Kiwanuka] If we're getting high tonight It's gonna be a long night It's gonna be a long night Underneath the sky, we fly high I was always hiding Now, I'm on a mountain [Instrumental Outro: Yussef Dayes]