refrain / decide

[Part I: refrain] [Verse 1] Girl, don't refrain The words that you wanna say Try to help and you push me away When I offered out my hand When I said I was your friend When you said, "We need to end," that shit hurt Was it all my fault? Don’t know what I did wrong I tried to be strong But my mind's stuck in awe And I don't know if that will change (Oh) [Chorus] I've been fighting You've been hiding from all your problems I'm indecisive, way too violent Surprised I'm not falling Damned out my pride I still hate my life But time still passes by And I pray I survive [Verse 2] I'm insecure, I hate my face, my life is a mess I try, but all the little things still get to my head Come and suppose, unfriend, some went ghost Baby, my eyes were closed, and they won't ever open again [Chorus] I've been fighting You've been hiding from all your problems I'm indecisive, way too violent Surprised I'm not falling Damned out my pride I still hate my life But time still passes by And I pray I survive [Part II: decide] [Chorus] I collide and try to cover up my tracks But I decide to live in the public eye [Verse 1] But one day I wake up Write a note detailing the faults in my life And I slowly enter the light Even though it's not my time The fate of the awakened and the damned in this fucked up fairytale So many times, know I was avail' Was anything you showed me ever real? [Chorus] I collide and try to cover up my tracks But I decide to live in the public eye I collide and try to cover up my tracks But I decide to live in the public eye [Bridge] (looking for comfort, it's love and it's lies) (succumb to thoughts in my head late at night) (remember them long night, them nights that I cried) (thinking of shit that I kept deep inside) [Verse 2] All of the comments and posts, M.I.A Whenever I close my eyes in my bed There's some days I think I'd be better off dead So someone can finally clean up all my mess There's things in the past that I wish I could change And over time, I learned how to numb my pain I'm writing these songs so people understand That it's okay if you do not have a plan What you wan' do with your life We're all human, we fuck up sometimes But we're all trying our best to survive In this fucked up cycle we call life [Chorus] I collide and try to cover up my tracks But I decide to live in the public eye I collide and try to cover up my tracks But I decide to live in the public eye [Refrain] (Looking for comfort, it's love and it's lies) (Succumb to thoughts in my head late at night) (Remember them long night, them nights that I cried) (Thinking of shit that I kept deep inside)