refrain / decide

[Part I: refrain]

[Verse 1]

Girl, don't refrain

The words that you wanna say

Try to help and you push me away

When I offered out my hand

When I said I was your friend

When you said, "We need to end," that shit hurt

Was it all my fault?

Don’t know what I did wrong

I tried to be strong

But my mind's stuck in awe

And I don't know if that will change (Oh)

[Chorus]

I've been fighting

You've been hiding from all your problems

I'm indecisive, way too violent

Surprised I'm not falling

Damned out my pride

I still hate my life

But time still passes by

And I pray I survive

[Verse 2]

I'm insecure, I hate my face, my life is a mess

I try, but all the little things still get to my head

Come and suppose, unfriend, some went ghost

Baby, my eyes were closed, and they won't ever open again

[Chorus]

I've been fighting

You've been hiding from all your problems

I'm indecisive, way too violent

Surprised I'm not falling

Damned out my pride

I still hate my life

But time still passes by

And I pray I survive

[Part II: decide]

[Chorus]

I collide and try to cover up my tracks

But I decide to live in the public eye

[Verse 1]

But one day I wake up

Write a note detailing the faults in my life

And I slowly enter the light

Even though it's not my time

The fate of the awakened and the damned in this fucked up fairytale

So many times, know I was avail'

Was anything you showed me ever real?

[Chorus]

I collide and try to cover up my tracks

But I decide to live in the public eye

I collide and try to cover up my tracks

But I decide to live in the public eye

[Bridge]

(looking for comfort, it's love and it's lies)

(succumb to thoughts in my head late at night)

(remember them long night, them nights that I cried)

(thinking of shit that I kept deep inside)

[Verse 2]

All of the comments and posts, M.I.A

Whenever I close my eyes in my bed

There's some days I think I'd be better off dead

So someone can finally clean up all my mess

There's things in the past that I wish I could change

And over time, I learned how to numb my pain

I'm writing these songs so people understand

That it's okay if you do not have a plan

What you wan' do with your life

We're all human, we fuck up sometimes

But we're all trying our best to survive

In this fucked up cycle we call life

[Chorus]

I collide and try to cover up my tracks

But I decide to live in the public eye

I collide and try to cover up my tracks

But I decide to live in the public eye

[Refrain]

(Looking for comfort, it's love and it's lies)

(Succumb to thoughts  in my head late at night)

(Remember them long night, them nights that I cried)

(Thinking of shit that I kept deep inside)