Downhill

Downhill Looks like downhill from here I'm still Wondering how I made it through the year I've been trying to find the difference between the feeling and the fear But it's unclear Downhill Couldn't stop if I tried I still see the broken glass the flashing lights I've been selfish I've been reckless Never thought I'd feel so numb at 25 At 25 I'm breathing into my chest I wake up shivering cold Look at the blood on my hands Feels like I'm losing control Through all the tears and the sweat Feels like I'm starting again I never said I was done I'm coming back from the dead I'm coming back from the dead I'm coming back from the dead Downhill Like a spell I can't resist I'm still under cause I can't get over it I've tried every kind of poison But attention is the drug that I can't quit Downhill I would stop if I knew how They said I should thank the loss for what I found Pay respects, I'll lay my flowers on the grave And salt the ground I'm going down I hear the sound of the drums I feel it under my skin Beating the walls like a pulse And now it's pulling me in I dragged myself through the mud I talked myself off the edge I never said I was done I'm coming back from the dead I'm coming back from the dead I'm coming back from the dead All the bad days, and the bouquets and the words unsaid All my worst traits, every worst case playing in my head Overwhelm me Heaven help me I'm in love with it Get in we're going down fucking hill Downhill Looks like downhill from here I'm still wondering how I made it through the year I've been trying to find the difference between the feeling and the fear But it's unclear Downhill Couldn't stop if I tried I will maybe if I make it out alive I'm awake and I've been patient I've been waiting for the moment to arrive To arrive