You/Him (Maybe)

Happy happened when we were doing other things I still feel your hand sliding up my knee Softly, softly Makes me look at dead flowers and want to cry Because I didn't look hard enough while they were still alive You watered my heart like summer fruit Nurtured me 'til I grew Until I was too ripe for you Fell into the arms of someone new Rhythmically I erase your name From the places that I see every day The memories start to fade The way you look at me changes You were a big city trapped in a small town With sacred places I learned and I loved well He was a small town trapped in a big city He couldn't cut himself to fit, so he tried to cut me You were a big city trapped in a small town With sacred places I learned and I loved well He was a small town trapped in a big city He couldn't cut himself to fit, so he tried to cut me He tried to cut me, he tried to cut me Maybe when you're not a thousand miles away We can make out in your car on some musicless day Maybe by then we'll be ready We can pretend it's the first time The day you knew you were synesthetic You sensed the way I tugged on his jacket I loved you more than that, even then I always loved you more than him You were a big city trapped in a small town With sacred places I learned and I loved well You were a small town trapped in a big city He couldn't cut himself to fit, so he tried to cut me You were a big city trapped in a small town With sacred places I learned and I loved well You were a small town trapped in a big city He couldn't cut himself to fit, so he tried to cut me He tried to cut me, he tried to cut me