Fcking Smiling

[Verse 1] You’re doing better Eighty-degree weather at Dolly’s I bought a ticket cause you felt dismissive I’m sorry Well it’s hot as shit And you’re doing bits I’m laughing at it It’s cracking my lips And I didn’t mean it Just wanted to see that you’d want me [Pre-Chorus] And I’m as sad as the cotton candy In a bag you left at the entry [Chorus] I’ve been fucking smiling I’ve been taking one, two, three, four, five breaths Trying to keep from crying Counting all the things I almost said I’d hate for you to see The way you broke my heart I don’t wanna leave I’ll get back in the car I’ll keep fucking smiling And that’s the saddest part [Verse 2] Small talking pandering Both of my hands are in pockets Choking on air saying I dyed my hair But you saw it Then I took a took a hit And offered you it And you said you quit Well I’m still addicted Still on the carousel Waiting even though they stopped it [Pre-Chorus] And I’m as sad as cotton candy Sugar and air it’s all so empty [Chorus] I’ve been fucking smiling I’ve been taking one, two, three, four, five breaths Trying to keep from crying Counting all the things I almost said I’d hate for you to see The way you broke my heart I don’t wanna leave I’ll get back in the car I’ll keep fucking smiling And that’s the saddest part [Post-Chorus] I’d hate for you to see The way you broke my heart I don’t wanna leave I’ll get back in the car I’ll keep fucking smiling And that’s the saddest part [Outro] Remember in the bodega for Pop Chips at one in the morning? Say goodbye to aphasia And all of the words I’ve been hoarding