RUSSIAN ROULETTE

I was born a rare breed and knew my type was endangered I'm gravitating towards anything that involves any danger I took the trauma that I had and flipped that shit like a gainer Cause growing up I wasn't nurtured now it's part of my nature I had these people all around me say they fucking embarrassed Cause I was chasing what I thought was in store like an errand It's evident you envy, you acting out, it's apparent You got a problem bring it to my manager like you Karen I'm saying Everything that makes me feel alive Comes back to haunt me I'm slowly committing suicide Thеre's no way I can avoid it I've got 50,000 choices All of thеm end with the same thing So I guess I'll pick my poison I'm standing on the edge Playing Russian Roulette Pulling the trigger myself Hoping it ain't my last breath Cause I'd take far too many regrets I ain't scared to run it You can load up the clip Fill it up with every round I'll put it to my head and I'll click Even if it's pointblank and I shoot that shit It's still gonna miss, I'll bite that bullet Giving that plot some entertainment and twist I always took myself directions that ain't scared to resist Taking the easy ways a route for somebody that's a bitch I live my life in ways that when it's done and I reminisce And death is knocking at my door I'll just greet her with A kiss and with bliss Everything that makes me feel alive Comes back to haunt me I'm slowly committing suicide There's no way I can avoid it I've got 50,000 choices All of them end with the same thing So I guess I'll pick my poison I'm standing on the edge Playing Russian Roulette Pulling the trigger myself Hoping it ain't my last breath Cause I'd take far too many regrets