Every Night [alternate version]

I'm not feeling human anymore Half connected all the time Each night I document the things I've done The pointless points I've made for stupid reasons Every night, every night Every night I'm always the same You're pounding on my brain Tonight and every night I lie down clenching up my teeth Trying to fall asleep I've sat an smoked a billion cigarettes And wished to Hell that you were here My stained and calloused fingers hold a pen Scratching apologies to you Too late, too little Every night, every night Every night I pay off my debts Trust me, I don't forget Tonight and every night I will analyze everything Make myself count the ways I fucked up today