Feelin

spent the winter pretending I'm okay and I love a sinner cause we look the other way but I been going under pretending that I am okay I am a girl of thunder wishing all the world away like wine with dinner I talk but i don't say how I been feelin how I been feelin about all of these feelings oh do you want me now how I been feelin pretending I'm dealing without but I ain't feeling oh do you want me out was it easy deciding you're not mine do you feel me do I ever cross your mind and I hate that you affect the way I feel at all I don't deserve to find my footing just to fall and wine with dinner I talk but I don't say now voice, I don't need you to crack no telling what you might say that I can't take back and I don't think I can open up that door I'm afraid to give a voice to what I'm wanting for so I don't or I can't or I won't but it's like i'm going crazy thinking about how I been feelin