Feelin

spent the winter pretending I'm okay
and I love a sinner cause we look the other way
but I been going under pretending that I am okay
I am a girl of thunder wishing all the world away like
wine with dinner
I talk but i don't say
how I been feelin
how I been feelin about all of these feelings
oh do you want me now
how I been feelin
pretending I'm dealing without
but I ain't feeling
oh do you want me out
was it easy deciding you're not mine
do you feel me
do I ever cross your mind
and I hate that you affect the way I feel at all
I don't deserve to find my footing just to fall and
wine with dinner
I talk but I don't say
now voice, I don't need you to crack
no telling what you might say that I can't take back
and I don't think I can open up that door
I'm afraid to give a voice to what I'm wanting for
so I don't
or I can't
or I won't
but it's like i'm going crazy thinking about
how I been feelin