A Disgrace

When you close your eyes you feel nothing but disgrace And you fantasize of being somewhere else You live and you learn You learn that you only have to earn enough for yourself Give nothing to no-one else When you open your eyes and everything's just the same Then you realize you're among the ones to blame You're living a lie, it's part of their plan until you die You're hiding your face but still welcoming their embrace A disgrace You thought that those feelings would never get in your way But somehow you grew your unwillingness along the way A sense of deception at night when you go to sleep Can't make it undone 'cause the wound is already too deep Every night, every day, it will come to you Anytime anywhere, it will follow you