Beautifully // Depressing

It’s been a long time since I've felt right I’ve been dying to leave as I bleed on the inside Was there any weight in the words exchanged? I’ll numb myself instead, let the cancer spread cause You’ve sucked the feeling away This chip on my shoulder something that I can’t shake I promise I gave you everything Nothing more that I can give Nothing left for you to take I'm tired of speaking with a ghost That I kept too close, now I'm someone that I don’t even know How did I become someone else What did I ever do wrong As I exposed all my flaws, you built up your walls I'm was always at fault My lungs gave out when I tried to explain I walked on needles and pins and never mattered anyway Did you mean it? Or was it to mess with my head I’m withered in the deep end of everything that you said Drag my knuckles till they bruise, spill my guts from the abuse Sounds of somber echoed through my room I'm drowning in pathetic thoughts of you Despite the fact that you took everything I don’t always wish things differently I'm tired of speaking with a ghost That I kept too close, now I'm someone that I don’t even know The words you spoke only echoed a growing doubt That submerged right into my brain Here I am a bird trapped in a cage Still a bird trapped in a cage Bittersweet, This loss is beautifully depressing Life is beautifully depressing