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Tie this tourniquet Pull it tight around my neck Just fucking clip the pressure Cut the circulation Till my body rejects You know I still have that bullet The one with your named carved through it It's never left my head Even it pains me to just admit it I still think about you Everyday It kills me to say I still wish things differently When suddenly everything changed And I can't get used to the fact That nothing ever seems to last And what doesn't kill you Just becomes trauma that we mask Things we wanna keep buried But seems we'll nеver get past I keep letting it in And pouring it out For thе world to see All of my doubts I don't trust myself I only blame myself Despite how much time has passed It still hurts like hell Don't say I didn't love you Cause it hurt like hell when I left you Lost in limbo and filling the void I let my guard down I poured my heart out I put my faith into you Calloused and reduced To a lesser version of who I once was Getting burned by those that you love Sick to death of biting my tongue Blaming myself for all that you've done Tie this tourniquet Pull it tight around my neck Just fucking clip the pressure Cut the circulation Till my body rejects I've got this hemorrhage in my head Can it be fixed? Or will I wind up dead? I guess only time will tell But I'd do anything to help me forget What was left of us, honestly? Ask yourself, did you ever really love me? Was anything fucking worth it? Ask yourself It'll never make sense The people closest to you Always hurt you in the end It'll never make sense The people closest to you Wanna see you dead