[Verse 1]
When I was a boy there was some terrible shit that went down
But still I hung around, to see if it would get better
And when I was a lad, well I was lonely and I was sad
But still I hung around, to see if it would get better
And when I was the boss, well there was so many things that I lost
But still I hung around, to see if I could win
But I’m getting so tired of this contest, who comes out on top man I couldn’t care less
This smile you see I can do coz I practiced and I ain’t ever gonna check this sadness
You trust truth bare witness
[Chorus]
This shit is old, my angers been in control since like forever, on my eleventh year
And what they stole, man I can never be whole not I ever, not even when I am no longer here
[Verse 2]
So I built a wall, I built it sturdy and I built it tall. You cannot get around
It’s covered all in big graffiti
That nothing can erase. Coz it’s a permanent mark of disgrace that I will always feel whenever I look in a mirror
You know I tried to hide, I tried to cover it all up inside
But it still it comes around. Still it comes around
I can never be normal unless I fake it, you say that you can but I know you can’t take it
This song might be long but on truth it’s a statement that I ain’t gonna ever shake the memory of that basement. Trust
[Chorus]
This shit is old, my angers been in control since like forever, on my eleventh year
And what they stole, man I can never be whole not I ever, not even when I am no longer here
[Verse 3]
And in the night-time, imaginations breed deadly violence, inflicted my friends
Carry my brother, I think I’d rather, you had it better, write my own letter, found by my mother read it to no one in the end
But when I dream I dream of paradise, one where I live somebody else’s life
Why can’t I live somebody else’s life?
Before this fear was here I was alright
Before this fear was here I was alright
Before they led me down the stairs
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