Happier

[Intro: Ollie] Hold the pain, keep it silent [Bridge: Ollie] Hold the pain, keep it silent Know my time only runnin' out By the way that I'm smilin' Can't nobody see I'm down Do my best to be okay But that's if my feelings allow These thoughts live with me always [Chorus: Ollie & Witt Lowry] All I think is how Now nothin' feels the same No, nothin' feels the same Searching for where I belong I just wanna be happier Now, nothin' feels the same No, nothin' feels the same Learning from where I went wrong I just wanna be happier (Yeah), yeah [Verse 1: Witt Lowry] The more I learn, the more I realize how much I have lеft to learn Remembеr back when seven fifty an hour was all I earned And Mom was workin' overtime, just tryna make things work So every bill that came in the mail came with concern I thought maybe a degree could change some things for her and me Was even honored by the Dean, that didn't matter at all I bought the lie they sold to me at the expense of my own dreams Said they had everything I need, just need to pay for it all Well, fuck that, they used to tell me, "Fuck rap, you need to take a step back Look in the mirror, Mark, and look at yourself" They almost had me thinkin' I should put my dreams on the shelf They don't believe in me just like they don't believe in themselves I took that chip and then I wore it proudly Along the way I became fixated on those who doubt me Somehow lost sight of all the blessings that were all around me I let comparison and pressure almost fuckin' drown me Was lost until I found me I treated the world like it owed me My self-worth came from comments from people that didn't know me Feelin' lonely, feelin' like I let everybody else down Barely recognizin' anyone now, and [Chorus: Ollie] All I think is how Now nothin' feels the same No, nothin' feels the same Searching for where I belong I just wanna be happier Now, nothin' feels the same No, nothin' feels the same Learning from where I went wrong I just wanna be happier [Verse 2: Witt Lowry] Don't wanna partake in this rat race, don't have a lot but have faith And how can I create when my mind is in such a bad place? I finally made some money, but more issues is what that made Remember thinkin' that I'll be happy once I reach that place But not so much, I did it, I felt the rush But on the way, I left some people and things I love in the dust That's when I finally realized how now enough is never enough I wear this smile on my face and nobody has called my bluff I'm honest, I may have added some commas But was naïve to think that money could alleviate problems I let the numbers become all the validation I seek Now I know showin' my emotions doesn't mean that I'm weak Despite what others may think And maybe all along happiness was a choice And I listened to their opinions instead of my inner voice The old me just really wanted the world to love and respect me Now I'm sick of livin' life for everybody except me So don't text me, all I want is to fuckin' live in the moment Should appreciate the journey a little more and I know it Kept around the ones I trust and cut everybody else out Barely recognizing anyone now, and [Chorus: Ollie] All I think is how Now nothin' feels the same No, nothin' feels the same Searching for where I belong I just wanna be happier Now, nothin' feels the same No, nothin' feels the same Learning from where I went wrong I just wanna be happier [Outro: Ollie] Searching for where I belong I just wanna be happier now (I just wanna—)