I Could Not Plan This

[Intro] Yeah [Verse] An idle mind is where the demons roam Last night I met fear, doubt, hurt, hate, pain Told me, "If you don't change, then we don't go" They'll give us life, and then we don't grow They got me thinkin', "Am I really in control now?" This whole town doesn't really feel like home now My family been sayin', "Mark, you gotta slow it down" Out on a date, she say, "You really on your phone? Wow" Livin' through my phone now I been feelin' disconnected Everyone around me, they would never get it Do they love me 'cause I'm hurtin' or they get the message? Only love me when I'm workin' 'cause they want percentage I remember late night writin' here to tell you the truth Back when I was too broke, servin' tables just to pay for a booth Back when really, I had nothin' to lose Back when—, ugh! Fuck it, brace yourself for the news Last year I saw my dad pass away right in front of my eyes A couple fake friends showed me who they were in disguise My ex-girl told me nothin' but lies So maybe I was just in love with who she was in my mind I been lost inside my mind lately I been losin' track of time lately It's like I barely know who I'm lately I been prayin' for a sign lately I been yellin' at the sky lately My only question, that was "Why?" lately Why is it I'm weak if I show the people I feel? And why is it they told me that time is all that can heal When it's I who needs to heal me? Been searchin' for somethin' real And I know that we attracted the energy that we deal I been overthinkin', overthinkin' And nowadays I find 'em over-drinkin' on a weekend The people yellin', "Where is Mark? 'Cause we fuckin' need him" See, this is somewhere you can go when you feel like there's nothin' else to believe in I never could plan the doubt, I never could plan the pain I never could plan the number of people screamin' our name I never could plan the love, I never could plan the hate I never could plan the love would turn into hate when it's fake I never could plan the fear, I never could plan the hurt I never could plan that I would be helpin' people with words I never could plan the heart that was put inside of my chest I'm a human here with a vision, no less or more than the rest, ahh