Father's Day

[Verse 1]

Tears still rolling down my face

Simple fact it being Father's Day

My confidence was confiscated

More confrontations, shortened patience

I'm aggravated, agitated

Hate to say this, I ain't been a father lately

And I feel like I been a screw up

But then again everybody needs to tune up

Self observation, conversations

Choices made, I'm tryna find some confirmation

Damn, how the fuck did I get here though?

My own pops wasn't round to see his kids grow

And I be damned if I follow where his foots go

My baby mom took my kids about a year ago

I can't lie, shit is hard, she don't get it though

Every day the kids asking where their daddy go

Shit, still praying for a better way

I visualise good times when I meditate

To be alone on my own on this Father's Day

Tears still rolling down my face

To God I pray

To each his own, I can't condone

I compensate, the weed relates

And freeze the mind of my mistakes

I smoke and drink, I contemplate

I start to think, I hate my baby mama

But that ain't true, but that ain't you

Wear my shoes, I bet you couldn't fit in 'em if you tried to

I'm sick of lies, I'm tired of what I'm going through

It all starts with your kids not knowing you

Am I putting too much time in this vocal booth?

Am I spending too much time with my new boo?

Or do you do it for your fam or the new coupe?

Holidays of change ain't what I'm used to

I was tryna refrain from doing court moves

Never, ever a fan of doing court rooms

Too many regrets, it's all in my head

It's really not true cause all that I do was for my kids, damn

Living on edge, I'm praying for help

It's Father's Day and I'm feeling like I hate myself

I hate this fame and sometimes, I hate this game

But it's gon' change, yeah yeah, this shit gon' change

[Hook]

Happy Father's Day

Hate it had to be this way

Happy Father's Day

I hate it had to be this way

My heart beats this way

That why my heart beats this way

I hate it had to be this way

[Verse 2]

As the tears rolling down my eyes

One day, wonder if my girl think it's kinda weaker to cry

Baby mom sending threats, tryna seek and divide

Attitude hella rude cause I'm happy inside

Met a queen, Lord knows he just give me a sign

Who gon' grab my hand? Who gon' wipe my tears?

She gon' pat me on the back like it's alright, my dear

Still wishing every day I had my grandma here

But hey, that's the way that life is though

We all living just to die, the way this script goes

Shit, no answers, screaming fuck cancer

Staring at a pic of my son, he so handsome

First born, my baby girl, it's so special

FaceTime to see 'em smile and say I love 'em

First Father's Day alone, I had to suffer

Still counting blessings cause they ain't got to struggle, Lord

[Hook]

Happy Father's Day

Hate it had to be this way

Happy Father's Day

I hate it had to be this way

My heart beats this way

That why my heart beats this way

I hate it had to be this way

[Verse 3]

See a nigga going through

Make a change what I'm going through

Sometimes people never understand 'til it all hits the fan

Should have listened to 'em, warned you

But that's life and we never get to do it twice

I understand not many of us ever get it right

But hopefully you kinda close before you see the light

The realest shit I ever wrote in my whole life

Yeah, and to my son and my beautiful daughter

I'm sorry I wasn't better for you and your brother

That bad blood in between me and your mother

We both did things back and forth to each other

I apologize, go and dry your eyes

There's gon' come a time when it's all aligned, daddy's singing you them lullaby's

Me and baby boy, throwing up the high five

And baby girl probably passing me the pompoms

Not mine but on God's time

Still wishing y'all was close cause I know the way that time flies

On this day I was really in my feelings

Roll another blunt cause I been trying not to feel it

Tears falling down on the pad on what I've written

Part of me just gotta forgive, my daddy missing

Cause I am nothing like him

I'm so unlike you, going through it like them

Shit, growing up right in front of your eyes

Far from the perfect that we seeking to find

There's a beauty in the struggle when you growing inside

All my insecurities just on a platter besides

I'm alive, I'm alive

And besides, shit, I'm alive

[Hook]

Happy Father's Day

Hate it had to be this way

Happy Father's Day

I hate it had to be this way

My heart beats this way

That why my heart beats this way

Love y'all