The Body Remembers

[Verse 1]

When I slammed my knuckle in the pantry door

Whispering "grow up" like a mantra, fetal on the floor

I thought, "The body remembers, of course it does"

Yet, I'm still surprised every time I get cut

And yes, I know the answers to like, two whole things

But I can talk until my mouth hurts, 'til my lips dry sting

Because the body remembers, the body creates

And the mind is the body, even though that seems fake

[Chorus]

But what if that feeling I get sometimes

Where I could hold my lungs in my hand

My tongue and my temples, each taken apart

And newly reassembled means something?

Means that I am a specialized record

And if I just spin out with some effort, I land

No map and no tour guide, in cells and in sand

That knew me before I existed

[Verse 2]

When you took your scissors to the yellowed edge

With your eyes and hands persuading, the blade at my head

I thought, "The body remembers, we've been over that"

Yet I'm still surprised when I hate who looks back

And I don't know the answers, but I'm always struck

By how I talk until my mouth hurts, 'til the phone hangs up

Because the body remembers, the body breaks down

And the mind is the body, wish it wasn't right now

[Chorus]

But what if that feeling I get sometimes

Where I could hold my lungs in my hand

My tongue and my temples, each taken apart

And newly reassembled means something?

Means that I am a specialized record

And if I just spin out with some effort, I land

No map and no tour guide, in cells and in sand

That knew me before I existed

[Bridge]

And I'll shave my fingerprints off

And I'll lose some teeth, or a strand of hair

I'll dig my cheeks 'til they're gaunt

Change my DNA just to prove that I'm there

Oh, I'll be here 'cause I'm gone

Pain's not a factor, pain is a fact, I'm a reactor

Sensory sprawling, manual input

I should just call it, I should—

[Chorus]

But what if that feeling I get sometimes

Where I could hold my lungs in my hand

My tongue and my temples, each taken apart

And newly reassembled means something?

Means that I am a specialized record

And if I just spin out with some effort, I land

No map and no tour guide, in cells and in sand

That knew me before I—