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ANOHNI – Why Am I Alive Now? (2023) | Track profile | Dork

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ANOHNI
My Back Was a Bridge For You To Cross
Why Am I Alive Now?

TRACK

Why Am I Alive Now?

Release date: 6th July 2023

From My Back Was a Bridge For You To Cross

Track 9

6:00

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About This Track

"Why Am I Alive Now?" is a track by ANOHNI, from the album My Back Was a Bridge For You To Cross, released 6th July 2023. The track is 6:00 long. It's filed under Alternative. Full lyrics are available below. Dork has published 1 article about ANOHNI.

About the Artist

ANOHNI

ANOHNI

Lyrics

Why Am I Alive Now?

Why am I alive now?
I don't want to be witness
Seeing all of this duress
Aching of our world

Why am I alive now?
Why am I alive?
I don't want to feel this
Aching color of our world

Why am I alive now?
Watching all this going down
All the animals around
Watching Nature swoon and sigh
Watching all the water dry
Watch the sky fall to the Earth
Birds and insects looking for, for a place to hide

Why am I alive to watch this duress?
Why am I seeing this stress?
Hide me from my disease

Why am I alive now?
Seems there's nothing left to hold
Except keep trying to accept

Hour after lonely hour
Collecting my mind
How did I arrive here?

I don't know much of anything
Except that you will take my life

I don't know why, I don't know why
I don't want to see your face
Meeting me when it's too late
Many people falling
Many people sighing

Once everything was a part of me
How did I come to be?
Now everything's gone to the floor
And all I ever want is more

Feel the trees begin to leave
Smoke swallow each mountain side
A rail of tears leads to the sea
No more footsteps in the sand
All our memories are sinking
Into un-living

I don't know
I don't kn-kn-know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't kn-kn-kn-know
I don't kn-know
I don't know
I don't know
Why am I alive here?
I don't know much of anything
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know why I'm alive now!
I don't know why I'm alive now!
I don't know why I'm alive now!
I don't know
I don't know why I'm alive now!

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Track details

From My Back Was a Bridge For You To Cross

6:002023

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Album

My Back Was a Bridge For You To Cross

Track number

9

Release year

2023

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4:55
2Go Ahead
1:31
3Sliver of Ice
3:42
4Can’t
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9Why Am I Alive Now?

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Credits

Production & Engineering

Writer: ANOHNI, Jimmy Hogarth
Producer: Jimmy Hogarth
Bass: Sam Dixon
Drums: Chris Vatalaro
Guitar: Jimmy Hogarth
Mastering Engineer: Greg Calbi
Mixing Engineer: Jimmy Hogarth
Percussion: Martin Slattery
Piano: ANOHNI
Recording Engineer: Jimmy Hogarth
Strings: Rob Moose
Strings Arranger: Rob Moose