Astel

Coming home to sit alone in silence

Screen glare, a flashlight shines right through my eyelids

I'm calmer now than a week before the high road

My crumbling Ford, it was a gift, it was a kindness

You'll never know I'm falling backwards through a mirror

If time is just a circle, I'll repeat my ways forever

Could I be less desperate if I even tried?

I need to learn to love myself, I want to live a normal life

I rest my bones beside you, it's shame I try to hide

'Cause if I left tonight, I know you'd bе alright

Skimming stones, a lake, an early mеmory

A phone call, a voicemail, pick up it's rudimentary

Daffodils, sprout late to your excitement

We're falling out, a narrative I never wanted

You'll never know I'm falling backwards through a mirror

If time is just a circle, I'll repeat my ways forever

Could I be less desperate if I even tried?

I need to learn to love myself, I want to live a normal life

I rest my bones beside you, it's shame I try to hide

'Cause if I left tonight, I know you'd be alright

I wish I was wiser, I wish you weren't so kind

It's a complimentary afterthought, I see it in your eyes

The life I outgrew, the pain I try to hide

'Cause if I left tonight, I know you'd be alright

I know you'd be alright

I know you'd be alright

I know you'd be alright

Coming home to sit alone in silence