Astel

Coming home to sit alone in silence Screen glare, a flashlight shines right through my eyelids I'm calmer now than a week before the high road My crumbling Ford, it was a gift, it was a kindness You'll never know I'm falling backwards through a mirror If time is just a circle, I'll repeat my ways forever Could I be less desperate if I even tried? I need to learn to love myself, I want to live a normal life I rest my bones beside you, it's shame I try to hide 'Cause if I left tonight, I know you'd bе alright Skimming stones, a lake, an early mеmory A phone call, a voicemail, pick up it's rudimentary Daffodils, sprout late to your excitement We're falling out, a narrative I never wanted You'll never know I'm falling backwards through a mirror If time is just a circle, I'll repeat my ways forever Could I be less desperate if I even tried? I need to learn to love myself, I want to live a normal life I rest my bones beside you, it's shame I try to hide 'Cause if I left tonight, I know you'd be alright I wish I was wiser, I wish you weren't so kind It's a complimentary afterthought, I see it in your eyes The life I outgrew, the pain I try to hide 'Cause if I left tonight, I know you'd be alright I know you'd be alright I know you'd be alright I know you'd be alright Coming home to sit alone in silence