Liminal

(I should've known that I would fuck this up again)
(Too busy running from the demons in my head)
I don't really wanna believe but I know
Everybody will eventually reap what they sow
All the strings that are pulling on me
I would've never agreed
But that's what happens when things are outgrown
I learned that the further on back that you look
You'll find even bigger mistakes and get hooked
I guess it got harder for meto let it go it but it seems
I gotta find me a future outlook
I just blame myself for how you came and went
I can't seem to bury feelings in the graves we choose to dig
I'm just over it all, if I can recall
You told me that the faster I fall
The faster you'll crawl to watch me undo
I should've known that I would fuck this up again
Too busy running from the demons in my head
I won't forget it
The walls are painted with all my thoughts
That feel so tainted from my frustration
That sits and rots face down on the floor again
Nobody understands the pain that I keep in
It never ends, I won't forget it
The walls are painted with all my thoughts
That feel so tainted from my frustration
That sits and rots
Stuck in place
I don't wanna lead myself astray
I don't really wanna be myself today
I can't compete with disarray
So what's the point?
When I can't sort it out
Got a hundred different ways that I can live in doubt
Losing everything and everyone I care about
When I'm down and out, feeling like deja vu
I just blame myself for how you came and went
I can't seem to bury feelings in the graves we choose to dig
I'm just over it all, if I can recall
You told me that the faster I fall
The faster you'll crawl to watch me undo
I should've known that I would fuck this up again
Too busy running from the demons in my head
I won't forget it
The walls are painted with all my thoughts
That feel so tainted from my frustration
That sits and rots face down on the floor again
Nobody understands the pain that I keep in
It never ends, I won't forget it
The walls are painted with all my thoughts
That feel so tainted from my frustration
That sits and rots
I've gotta restart
I'm losing over and over again (over and over again)
'Cause I've just done feeling empty
Done feeling guilty
I just wanna figure my shit out and bounce
Without a doubt
(Without a doubt, I should've known)
(Too busy running)
(I won't forget it)
(I feel so jaded)
(From my frustration)
That sits and rots face down on the floor again
Nobody understands the pain that I keep in
It never ends, I won't forget it
The walls are painted with all my thoughts
That feel so tainted from my frustration
That sits and rots