Never Found

My mind keeps running off with ease

I scream to make a sound

But the silence deafens me

Just looking for some air to breath

Nobody cares it seems

That I’m living carelessly

Without you

My mind keeps running off with me

I miss the here and now, my head’s too high up in the clouds

I wish I wasn’t so obsessed

The cycle never rests

Something I never would’ve guessed

I don’t know why

These feelings stick around (doubled down?)

I don’t know why

I haven’t drowned

So here I am

Headed down this one way road I dread again

It’s like it’s always been the plan

The message that I put out

Gets buried in the ground

Just looking for some way out

The comfort never found

(The exit never found)

I always try to fill up

The holes I dug deep down

Just feeling like I should of

Reached out and asked for help

Got me living like I’m closed up

My chance is wasted now

I’m Way too focused on the come up

To lose my grip somehow

I watch the years pass quietly

No need to make a sound

Cuz the silence deafens me