I’m Alive, But I’m Not Here

[Verse 1]

In my bed in LA

I've had way better days

It's 2am and I'm awake

I miss feeling feelings if you feel me

I don't know if I'm sad

But I miss what we had

It feels good to be bad

So I text someone new instead of you

I'm sorry it's the truth

I've lost my morals

I've slept with more girls than I can count

I hate the whole world but pray I won't be hellward bound

I lost you but never found myself again

My mom says that I'm selfish and she's right

So here I am without a friend 'cus I pushed them away to write

That..

[Chorus]

I'm alive, but I'm not here

I'm sick of trying without a cure

My eyes are dry but I feel tears

Because losing time is my only fear

[Verse 2]

In my car in NY

Living just to get by

Traffic sucks but I drive

It gives me time to think more

I don't know if life's pure

I don't believe what I hear

I don't play for the cheers

But the world thinks that's what I sing for

This world ain't a source. We've drained it all

We have nothing left but big holes and heads

The water's brown and your daughters down on me now in bed

It really ain't the best. I'll take what I can get

I'm pacing back and forth like I'm race

"Ready? Set.. Go"

Let go and fall in the pit

We're all gonna die. We're all not gonna live

But...

[Chorus]

I'm alive, but I'm not here

I'm sick of trying without a cure

My eyes are dry but I feel tears

Because losing time is my only fear

[Outro]

I'm alive, but I'm not here

I'm sick of trying without a cure

I'm alive

But I'm not here