The Calm

[Intro]

And as I mention a powerful coastal storm is bringing heavy rain and strong wins across portions of the northeast today

Torrential downpour pummled parts on New York, Pennsylvania, New Jersey and-

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[Verse]

I got to be honest with me for the sake of development

Most of people I lost

I done lost to the cost of embracing my selfishness

Convinced that i'm chosen

Excuse my behavior

Been telling the people, I heard who be genius is crazy

I say I am, cause see, I was fucked to the point evеn therapy couldn't even savе me

I know i'm a narccisist rocking a cloak of a selfish soul

Truth is I wanna be greater but playing a part is strong as I sell my soul

Is there much space to comfortabe?

The gram make me look straight

In reality, 'way that I live ain't as wonderful

Ain't enough drugs in this world to take pain out my mind when my consciousness is cracking

Ain't enough sluts in the world validating i'm him cause my confidence lacking

Ain't enough funds in the world making up for the times when a promise ain't happen

For them times that I gave out my word and reverse on the sentence that left my tongue

Ashamed of myself cause I'm pressed to run

I hate how I act like my folks with most of my problems whenever the weight of the pressure comes

Not stabalized

InitaI mission was for changing lives

Initial mission was for me, I think

At least now we have ourselves amazing lives

Choose myself over 80 times and I won't forget it

Instead of linking folk who needed me

Chose my own survival and I don't regret it

But I miss niggas

Still thinking about my reckless days

Still think about them now

Crazy folk used to text away

Lot of days I want to patch it up

I don't even got the strength to say, "My bad I was wildin'"

Pride got me feeling childish

I know that I need grow up in this bitch but I know that I can't change the past

I know I need time just to heal from the wounds I've inflicted from chaisng this cash

I thought meeting Cole was the moment that'd make this shit worth it for all of the bag

But I met him and felt fucking empty and realized that happiness ain't really laugh

I'm starting to question what really matters

Telling myself every sacrifice made was a step toward the shit that we're really after

Look around

Who the fuck left here to elevate?

Outside my CXR niggas I don't got a day one left with me to celebrate

Gang activity been due to my ego

I watch as the gang had to seperate

I'm learning to cope

Learning my flaws

Learning forgiveness for times I was lost

Learning to give up control by desire and placing my faith in the hands of above

Learning to cherish the people I have

I'm learning to let go the people that's gone

Learning the only way niggas prepare for the storm is confessing their sins through the calm

Fasho