Grain of Salt

So shallow, not even an infant could drown within this compassion but

I feel as if I've drowned just the same

But rather from my ignorance that unconditional love might exist

I forgot the numbness

I forgot the frustration that makes up my daily routine of just getting by

I am just barely getting by emotionally

Judgment. Disappointment

A lack of patience for me

This is not security, but such a pretty package

The guise is broken as the truth rears it's ugly head unto me

A drunken soul, I'm conscious again

I've weakened from my stupor for the last time

So content caressed in rejection

For it's all that love has ever led to

Once again, the dying man lays down the law for this peon

It's his last grasp at control

A control that he lost in infidelity...

From today to you I'm dead as an order accepting son

Your searching and searching

But your family isn't at the bottom of any bottle

You're smoking us away

You're choking on your own

No place to hide other than my tears

They still give me away

Do all things end like this?

Must all things end like this?

So shallow

I take everything with a grain of salt