Survivor's Guilt

Expectations weigh on me
To satisfy these endless needs
And I don't care and I don't know why
Maybe I'm no good inside
And I don't care and I don't know why
Maybe I'm no good inside
All this wasted time to see your fucked up life become mine

And all these thoughts just won't be still
I bless my habit, pray to pills
Because I can't be part of your life until I know how to die
I can't be part of your life until I know how to die
All this wasted time to see your fucked up life become mine

Fake flowers begin to wilt
In this house my heart had built
To keep me far away from us
I know I'm not brave enough
To keep me far away from us
I'll never be brave enough
All this wasted time to see your fucked up life become mine