Ballad of Billy

Talking to you that night the light was low
I promised to you that I would never go
But you left me and you took with you all that I knew
About myself and about a life I thought I could choose
Well it was never in the cards
And that I have to show
I'm a piece of shit, I'm a hypocrite
Oh buddy don't I know
What I take from you I give to me
I'm a burden just to know

But I'll change yeah I'll change, but I'll change
I'm leaving my mind behind cause nothing true can stay
The ice in my veins will always get warm
And the insides of my brain well they might be torn
But it's all in vein, yeah it's all in vein, it's all in my veins
If you think we're busy living, well we must be dying too
Cause there's only so long you can live at this altitude
I've been cruising, been sleeping, been running, been tweaking, been lying for so long
Now my only way to talk is through Billy's song
Cause its always the same with billy

No strings attached- yet tangled, what a pity
Inside of Billy's chest, is a stolen heart of gold
And it's painfully pounding against his ribs, hard and cold
Promises, promises, all the lies he told
To mend the fragments of what once was whole
Tragedy won't make us any kinder
He'll stumble and falter
That's the ballad of our lost brother
Well it was never in the cards
And that I have to show

I'm a piece of shit, I'm a hypocrite oh buddy don't I know
What I take from you I give to me
I'm a burden just to know
But I'll change yeah I'll change, but I'll change