Life in Forward Motion

I was comin' off a relapse when they told me that you died
And I never did come visit, I thought we'd have more time
Well it weighs me down like granite that I gave you some excuse
Sometimes I tend to panic, don't wanna face the truth
I always kinda hoped for somethin' more
But it's hard to see the light when you're face down on the floor

I know livin' should be easy, but sometimes it feels a curse
There's a shadow hangin' 'round me and it's slowly growin' worse
'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse
I'm gettin' further from any meanin' for what it's worth

Could I find a new perspective, like I'm born with brand-new eyes?
Does it need to take a death for me to be grateful I'm alive?
Time's never felt so fragile as I race towards the end
And waste the little breath I've got left to make a promise to change again

I know livin' should be easy, but sometimes it feels a curse
There's a shadow hangin' 'round me and it's slowly growin' worse
'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse
I'm gettin' further from any meanin' for what it's worth

Further, for what it's worth

I know livin' should be easy, but sometimes it feels a curse
There's a shadow hangin' 'round me and it's slowly growin' worse
'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse
I'm gettin' further from any meanin' for what it's worth