throw it up

If we falter now, those lives will have been lost in-
If you got a problem with me now, just hit Chris about it
I don't give a shit about it, I don't even think about it, huh
Yeah, gotta keep my wits about me
Haven't seen my mother in some months, I feel her arms around me
Oh-oh, I feel God surround me
Look me in my eyes, I heard you know all about me
Never tried to take my life but, of course, I fucking thought about it
(Haha)

I thought about it but I never did it (I never did it)
(Social suicide) I plan on going missing (Yeah)
Want the old me, but back then I felt hogtied (Ahh)
You don't know me, you just know someonе that was online (Yeah)
I've shеd tears every time
I looked through the archive (Through the archive)
See a flashback of the old me in my hard drive
Lying if I said that I don't think about it much
I just need to throw it up, I just need to throw it—

Yeah, I can fight to live it all again
Quite confident and we prospering
Juventus with the draw again, like, fuck
I just made the call again, like, fuck
Slowsilver soldier, baby, throw it up

Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up

And my past will keep following me
And my ego's just hollowing me
Better speed up, get a move on
How much I gotta pay you just to move on?
Should we call this love? I don't understand
To you, I'm your heart, but I'm only a man
I don't wanna treat you like a crutch
I, I, I don't wanna see you, I just need to throw it up

Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up

Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up
Throw it up, throw it up
Baby, please just throw it up