Giving Myself Away

"Do what I have to"
Remember Emily?
"That's a long time" [2x]
In a long dress one summer day she said yes
Now every special request requires another
So many times it feels endless, a big yes
Branded red on each breast
But she selfless out there
Doing her best strangest thing
Nobody seemed to be impressed.
The more she do for this fool
The more she behind schedule
Had no fun for so long
Old records turned her onto High School flings
And she was full of daring
Colourful hair, used to wear thirteen rings
Now she staring drudgery
Full in the face and accepts it as her place
And just in case there's anything she missed,
She recheck the list
Does it over again,
To make sure it's spotless.
Jimmy longed for how it used to be,
She was viscous and volatile
She was feisty, iced tea was the tipple never asked nicely,
Her lips used to curl down ever so slightly, impolite,
Fire burned bright behind the Oakleys,
He just had to get to grips.
After a few long sips juice begin to lose flavour,
She no longer gets to savour being consumed.
Jimmy asleep drunk in the other room still in his shoes
Escaping headlong into the booze,
The whole house vibrating with the changes of moods.
From feisty she turned into "be nice to me"
In the old days he'd 've been wearing Ice T,
Jimmy prayed those times times returned,
She was fine and so beautifully unconcerned.
Jimmy told her, on the day he quit
"You don't love me you love the relationship"
Me?
I'm the progeny product of Misogeny,
Jimmy and Emily's homogeny
They promised me nothing but honesty,huh,
And that's all I got,
I could never be the cement in their destiny,
They still haven't forgiven me,
You know my own woman's leaving me
Said she stopped believing me,
Can't even see what she saw in me,
I told my woman she was beautiful,
She didn't believe,
Convinced herself I was preparing to leave,
so she took my son and left the world to freeze.
I told my woman she was beautiful Ten Times a Day,
Ten Times a Day she'd Smile, and look away.
I end up throwing my love down a bottomless pit.
And giving myself away...