Ghost in the Routine

Yeah, I know I'm supposed to think
About the bright side 'cause it helps
But I stow everything in a hole and locked up in a cell
Like an actor that is playing a role
Convincing everyone this is who I am
For months I've just been faking it all
Convincing them all
Make it so none can tell

It's so damn bad
(I fake smile as they walk past)
And I know not everyone gets that
(All my thoughts are a steel trap)
Honestly, I hide myself away
Then put on a face
Pretend that I'm okay

Do you know?
Can you see the glimpses of my health?
How I owe, owe it to myself to seek out help
Like a chameleon with its camouflage on
I'm convincing them all
Blend into the place I dwell
Not letting anyone see me fall
Concealing it all
Masquerading behind a veil

So damn bad
And I know, yeah, I know
I really should fight back

It's so damn bad
(I fake smile as they walk past)
And I know I really should fight back
(All my thoughts are a steel trap)
Honestly, I hide myself away
Then put on a face
To keep questions at bay

Honestly try to be honest
When I say that I'm okay
Put on a good face for each day
Just to keep questions at bay