Replacing Leene’s Bell

The uncertainty that's filling the room

Is heavy on my lungs

I taste it on the tip of my tongue

It's unfair that you were left to assume

That I was checked out, packed up, and waiting for my chance to run

If I am being honest

That could never be the truth

So upset that I had failed to notice all the signs

You felt despondent

Left alone without a clue

How to crack the combination of a fucked up mind

After all of times that I barely replied

To all the things you were excitеd about

I let work fill my mind

And lost sight of the time

And told mysеlf that I would text tomorrow

And then I never did

Caught up in work again

There is no reason that I shouldn't have set it aside

Now it's so evident

It was just selfishness

You deserve to feel appreciated

And while I'm being honest

I'm sure I'd feel the same

If we traded places and you left me out to dry

If you were unresponsive

I would feel so jaded too

You were absolutely right

It's my fault that I slid Into old habits

Shut myself off from the rest of the world

Should have welcomed you in and gave you precedence

I was convinced that you'd feel overwhelmed

I'm still learning how to be an open book when I'm down

I just want you to know, I understand if you go

I'd give up all I own, just to see you happy

I know that we have talked and worked it all out

But I can't help but hate how I almost dragged us both down

History is doomed to repeat

Unless mistakes turn into lessons that we swear to keep

And never lose

I'd give it all just to rid

You of your sadness

To keep us both in sync with the world

Swear to welcome you in and give you precedence

In fact I'd trust you to take over the helm

I have learned now how to be an open book when I'm down

I just want you to know, no matter how this goes

I'd give up everything

Just to make you happy

Who says that we can't be happy?