Jazzy's Tale

[Spoken]

I think I've stayed in most of my relationships too long

I was chasing a love and a life that I grew up seeing with my parents

So it was moreso about an idea in my head than the actual relationship that I had

Also, I just didn't wanna be alone

Growing up a brown skinned girl, a fat girl

Essentially growing up feeling undesirable

When I got older and I had a man that desired me

It validated me, and made me feel good about myself

Therefore, the content that the validation brought me

Was worth the actual pain that the relationship eventually brought

And it's a sad, scary, and vulnerable place

When you need to feel love so much that you're willing to accept anything